I am in physical pain right now.
Danny isn’t being bought out. He can’t be. This isn’t happening. It can’t. It can’t.
I am so beyond upset.
This isn’t happening.
My life is over.. crying..
I came out to my grandmother last night.
Me: Grandmom would you love me no matter what?
Grandmom: *making dinner* Of course.
Me: Are you sure?
Grandmom: *stops what she's doing* WHAT DID YOU DO??
Me: Nothing..
Grandmom: Of course I love all my grandchildren unconditionally. You all have a special place in my heart and nothing will ever change that.
Me: Okay.. *Tense silence* ...Grandmom I'm gay.
Grandmom: Really?
Me: Yes.
Grandmom: Are you just joking?
Me: No, I'm serious. I'm gay.
Grandmom: I still love you, it doesn't change a thing! *Hugs me* But really, are you just kidding?
Me: No, I'm being honest.
Grandmom: Okay. Well I had a feeling. You never had boyfriends and whenever I asked about boys you always had a funny smirk on your face.
Me: Yeah, it was always funny when you asked me about boys.
Grandmom: Well I still love you and it doesn't change anything. *Smiling* So do you have anyone special in your life?
The conversation went on for about twenty minutes. My grandmom was asking a lot of questions about who knew and how long have I known. She was surprised when I told her that I had remembered having crushes on my elementary school teachers. She also told me she felt very bad that I felt like I had to hide it. All she cared about was how I was handling it on top of everything else. She said how hard it must of been being young and going through all the I went through while hiding my sexuality on top of it. She was so understanding and genuinely curious about all of it. It was cute and went better than expected.
Later while she was driving home with my grandpop, she called me to let me know that she told him and that he still loves me, too. It went a lot better than expected! I was scared but at the same time I was like "well if they can love my sister who is a heroin addict, why couldn't they still love me?" lol.
Only two more grandparents and my godfather left to tell and I will be out to my whole family. Yay.
“I want to protect you but … it is so hard. To be strong. I don’t always know what I should do. I must know, though. I am all they have. I am the queen … the … the …”
“… mother,” whispered Missandei.
“Mother to dragons.” Dany shivered.
“No. Mother to us all.”
